Good morning fan club!
Yes I survived the night totally without sugar, I know I am amazing! Hopefully my body will function normally today, it is a bit early to know yet though.
I was writing about that I am happy the other day, didnt tell you why though, so I will do that now!
A year ago things where totally different. Paul was so sick and couldnt go outside our appartment without getting panic attacks, he was in the hospital for two weeks but got worse because he didnt get any help in there so I had to take him home to help him on my own. I have a long list of stories about how horrible the care is in this country... But we can return to that later. Anyway, Paul couldnt go outside especially not on his own, he couldnt cook dinner, it was to stressful, he couldnt do laundry, cleaning, play with James, I had to force him to eat, he couldnt do anything really. I had to deal with everything on my own. Many said to me that I should leave him, he would never get well so why did I waist my time? I did as I always do, I followed my heart, I knew that one day everything would be great, I knew that I was faceing one of the hardest challenges in my life but I really belived that everything would be great one day and I hoped that that day would come fast....
That day that I longed for so much, the day that we been fighting to reach for so long is here now. We worked together, day and night and today about a year after his breakdown Paul is functioning, hes back, he can do anything, Ive got my boyfriend back and thats why I am so happy, because he is my special person, the person that makes me most happy, that makes me laugh my laudest laugh, that can make me so angry that I want to explode, the person that can comfort me better than anyone and I never want to be without him. Hes my best friend.
When I look back on the year that pased I can not understand how I survived, how I managed to care for Paul and be a good mum at the same time, without sleep and without help. I look back with tears in my eyes and even if we went through hell I am very grateful for that year. Ive learned that we can do anything, if we just work together. Teamwork and love is the sulotion.
I am very grateful to Pauls family, to friends and to my grandma that helped us so much when we had it hard. I am grateful how all this made me to a stronger and better person, how I appreciate everything in life now that I didnt even see before and that Ive learned to ask for help.
Life is great! Even if it still is hard sometimes!
I thought that I could be a little extra cheesey and ask you to listen to this song, a very beautiful song that a friend of mine introdused to me a while ago. The singer Chris Medina wrote this to his fiance who crashed with her car and now have braindamage, hes still by her side and supports her everyday. Enjoy and please everyone out there, take care of eachother. Listen here
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